between the Capitol and Lincoln Memorial.
June 18, 2011 | 9:47 PM
That night when I suddenly realised so many things when talking to you was one of the scariest nights I had in the longest longest time. Maybe I have been so used to having you around that the thought of suddenly losing you because I never tried hard enough to keep you terrified me. I was scared, for sure, but I know we can work this out. Because that's why this has been so amazing so far, and I wouldn't let it go.
Many things happened today while I was out on my own -
1) I saw fireflies for the first time today, qii, and all I could think about was how happy you would have been if you were here. =)
2) I met a Pakistani-American guy who basically told me in my face he was looking for someone to get married to, and I was that nice person he met in that magical moment. In fact, he wasn't scary, and actually he came at the right time when I needed to talk to someone. I know I shouldn't have poured out everything, but maybe I just needed to have someone to talk to. Someone who didn't know the situation, and would just listen. I had to leave after a while, though, before it got too intense, or if he felt I was giving him hints. Too straightforward lah, some people. Quite an amazing experience.
3) I got off at the wrong stop on the DC Metro and walked to the right one on foot, at the same time people watching the crowd at Dupont Circle. It was rather liberating. Andre said I haven't had alone time in the longest time, and I guess he's right. I needed some time to myself today.
DC has been good. I saw things and buildings and met people I never thought I would, and grew up just a little inside. It's time to think about school, though.
velda.
